| | This is How I Break Down
I am stressed out. It's not work or class. It's the lack of time. It's the lack of sleep. I can't find a real balance and it's hurting me mentally in the sense that I just broke down and cried. The majority of the stress build up was due to last week. My lack of sleep and overabundance of midterms forced me into a "business mode" where I just tried to be tough and endure the crushing weight. It's not that I can't handle this - it's nowhere near that. There just comes a point where all you want to do is get eight hours of sleep and function through the day. But that's not always possible in college. I have bills to pay and classes to attend. I just can't nonchalantly neglect either. There are no choices. I've already sacrificed a social life, but I knew that would happen going in and I reconciled with that. I need a hug and a kiss and a whisper ensuring I'm doing okay. I can only tell myself so often I'm strong. Sometimes I need reaffirmation.
I wish they had protein-enriched salads, by the way. It would make getting the benefits of red meat much easier without eating it. I'm seriously considering becoming a vegetarian. Can they still eat chicken? Don't some anyway? I need rules. |
| | Posted 10/30/2005 11:59 PM - 14 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
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